December 4th, 2017
I’m not going to make this about love.
heard all your warnings,
don’t want to be pigeonholed.
I know other things
intimately; low-slung couches
cigarettes & spontaneous electrical surges.
I know violence too & I’ll get to that –
the feel of a heart leaving
inside the chest.
I’m not going to write about love right now,
no beauty either – not ready for it;
in a violent mood – would punch the wall
tired of justifying bruised knuckles in office meetings – S…..
never believes me
thinks I protest too much
ready for a fight now – there’s killing in me yet;
would perform it beautifully but
need a partner more beautiful than I,
I’m not looking to win
just get my heart beating again
give my shoulders a workout
do you see how hard I’m trying
not to write about love just
a beating heart &
have I ever written about love – no
isn’t about love
about life & life
not making this about love – what
else is there?
what else is there?
like my windscreen – the way it fogs
up on nights like these; like my radio cuts out on potholes & decay – radio cuts out a lot these days;
like braking hard or turning sharp to avoid small animals on the road;
like putting my foot down when I shouldn’t
like taking the long way home
look at me, not writing about love
look at me, not inhabiting a dead tongue
look at me, no mention of a blowjob anywhere
still find it fascinating when poets
write about cunt; like
there’s any taboo left to cunt when wispy
hairs become bracken, a mysterious fog,
there’s more beauty now in the way
she creases her dress to sit
than in her nudity & culture more alien
in fingertips than honey poets stumble
to find in her thighs;
I don’t feel ready to
write about love again
not after this
I read with great interest to discover that you’ve gone mad.
I found it most amusing to picture you howling in the streets, a stray dog indeed!
I like to think about your body; pale; hairy; irish genetics & predispositions.
You must come and visit with us sometime; I long to here you perform your withdrawal symptoms in my hall.